Why can't life be like the old sitcoms? In those shows the woman gets pregnant and ends up with the littlest bump in front imaginable and then a few shows later delivers a healthy baby and looks great right afterwards. Not so in my life. Nine months later I have a state fair winning pumpkin , you know the gigantic ones, protruding out my front, haven't been able to see my toes in months (which by the way are all swollen with retained water), and that cute little bump? well that was right after conceiving. I guess I have been lucky in that I never get morning sickness and usually I feel great right up until 36 weeks by when I'm ready to have the baby, but this time is different. A few months into the whole thing I got psyatic pain, then a herniated disk which caused pain untold and my right foot is still numb from, then I needed a root canal, and to top it all off of course I got gestational diabetes again. I'm just over 27 weeks and already have asked my doctor if it is too early to have the baby. I'm trying real hard to see what it is I'm suppose to learn through this trial, but so far have come up with zip. I get tired easier and snap at the kids as a result. All I want to do is lie in bed and yet all I want to do is get out of the house because I'm stuck here as a result of the disk and I can't lift anything including children so putting Lexie in the car is out. Walking is a chore yet I don't want to be in a wheel chair all the time. The weather is so nice right now that I want to be outside working on our land, but can't. I guess all I feel is frustration and it is taking it's toll. Sitting here reading what I have written makes me think maybe I'm not trying so hard to see the good and the reason why at all. Sounds like a lot of complaining to me, but there you have it anyway. My one and hopefully only one pity party at least during this pregnancy :)
You are a good woman, Sheilah. I'd be complaining left and right--pity party after pity party. That's a lot to handle! I had to laugh at the "little bump" comments--I get so big that people gasp when I walk by at the end. Not flattering. And snapping right back? Puh-lease.
ReplyDeleteOh I totally understand and I've only been pregnant once. I had sciatica too and people were asking me what sex my twins were at 7 months along. I was HUGE. Poor Jeremy had to put up with all my whining and moaning. I'm sorry!!!!!! Just think of the cute baby that comes at the end...that's the only thing that got me through... :)
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